Church is My Happy Place


What Mercy Did for Me



Church for me has never really been a place of healing or comfort. I just went on Sundays to go. I feel like for other people they just go to go too. They don't gain anything from the lesson or pay attention. I am not pointing fingers because I use to be that person. Eventually I stopped going, I wasn't gaining anything from it.  College though has been very stressful and I felt like I needed something. Something was missing from my life. Something I could not put my finger on. I went through a rough patch and needed help from my best friend. She said well I know God has never really been apart of your life, but maybe it is time you give it all to him. So that next Sunday I got out a dress from my closet and went to church for the first time in two years. I never knew it would be the best decision I would make in my life. I cried not because I was sad. I felt at peace. This feeling of peace came over me. I knew this is where I needed to be.

Every Sunday and Wednesday I wake up ready to go to church. A feeling I haven't felt since I was young. I know when I walk through those doors I will get to see my friends. I will be welcomed with open arms and smiles. I know that whatever I faced through that week will be put to rest. God has got me. He knows what I need to hear to make it through the next week. He picks up the pieces that has fallen through the week and puts them back together. Wednesdays are also a great time to worship with friends. Iain knows somehow what we all need to hear. He takes the word and puts it into real life situations. The thing he has said that sticks out the most to me is " When you think you are weak, you are really strong. And when you think you are strong, you are really weak." That has stuck with me everyday since then. To me this means when I feel down and like it won't get better that in reality it will get better. God will lift me up. Even though right now it might seem impossible, but soon it will get better. God has a plan for everyone. He may do stuff that will break you down but he is doing it to build you up for something bigger and better. Church has made me realize that I have an abundance of friends who will help bring me up when I am down. Who will be the shoulder I can cry on. They make me laugh and cry. I have gained so many sisters from this journey and I will forever be grateful.


The thing that makes me the happiest is I have gained God in my life. I wake up and know he is there. He is walking beside me in my life everyday. I may not always feel him with me but he is there. I got a bracelet recently is says "He walks with me." It came from one of my favorite songs and it goes " He walks with me, He talks to me." It reminds me he is there.  And I can talk to him anytime in prayer. He will take away my worries and sorrows. He will lift me up when I need it. I gained God this last month. I gained a family. I gained happiness. And I owe it all to Him.

"But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation." Psalms 13:5 

With Love,
K

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